last night

I was talking (e-mailing, actually) with Mike last night, and I was hit with this incredible pain. It hurts so much, I just want it to stop. I just want to be happy again. But it hurts me when I can't tell people what I'm feeling. It's not like I don't want them to know, but I am an actress through and through. I wish that I didn't hide what I felt underneath smiles so much. Maybe I just want a little attention right now, but no one reads this blog, so what's the point of writing that?